Personal touch

A friend said

"Ya Allah, gve me the strength to face ths Wednesday. No matter wht the results is, i'll accept it with all my heart since i have done my best "

I too want to believe this, but i just can't. why because i dont think ive done my best. It's different than my PMR. Waktu PMR i could feel i did usha alot, such as pergi tuisyen classes and habiskan buku-buku contoh laithan. But for SPM, i felt that sometimes i did't do my best, i could have done harder. but the truth was i did ape yang saya mampu waktu itu. maybe i just dont remember

another thing that says i didn't do the best was that during the second week of SPM i fell sick, demam yes. waktu pai i could feel kepala pusing even during the 20 minute break before paper 2 PAI i could study nothing. and i felt sangat sakit hati, when tajwid jawab salah, because i was too sick. the next day was add maths, i went home after pai and alhamdullilah was better the next day, but add maths kena perah otak. and yes saya cakap ADD MATHS SUSAH! dah la susah. demam lagi. i still remeber biology was on tuesday but during the weekend i couldn't study any biology because pening akibat demam. so i just used all the ilmu yang ada before this. i could not do any last minute covering. wish buat rase sakit lagi. but i did my best.

Dalam hati masih rasa x yakin. my dream was even worst. but lets recall usaha-usha menjelang SPM, maybe i'd feel better.

for chemistry i remeber jumpa cikgu, carik fasi, tanya bnyk soalan and it paid off my paper one was getting better during trial selangor. add maths, saya bnyk usaha jugak. beli buku.tanya. ajar org jugak and dapat A- waktu trial, but as for Spm still rase mcm bummer. as for biology, ye saya usaha bnyk jugak. beli buku ikut ckp cikgu pakai diagram dpat pun saya A- utk trial sbp. hopefully waktu SPM its okay, cuma paper 3 kantoi sikit. mak aih. and lastly physics. ini cikgu sa'idah punya usaha and my mother's who carik a private tutor for me. yee saya blaja dhn syifa' pergi kelas cikgu tanya soalan. wish i'd study waves better. but the paper was freaking tough. so again saya x tahu.

but i know that most of my paper ones and threes are okay EXEPCT add maths. dan saya ade jugak menyesal kenapa saya x belajar lagi. but truth is I did. stay up malam-malam semampu saya.. SO YAKIN LAH

maybe one thing yang buat rase x yakin is kawan kawan mungkin saya macam x ikhlas during some study groups sebab saya malas nak jumpa dgn org tu or whatever. tapi skrg saya tahu utk menghargai segala study group yang ada. so sorry whoever i was in group with.

maybe ade jugak terasa kalau x pergi asrama i would be better but then again saya x tahu, sebab saya di asrama lebih bnyk ibadat dari rumah. baca yasin setiap malam dgn solat hajat sekali. so again i dont know but i'm glad i did masuk integomb. so may my results be the best.i dont know why ive got this feeling inside my head.one thing to note is kalau you rase benda tu susah org lain pun sama. and im not going to blame anymore for being demam. infact hari last PMR which was geo, pun i had a light cold.

Oh and ive decided nak jadi pharmacist. so my plan insyaallah dapat staright a's, mohon jpa utk faramsi. buat ausmat kat intec, then gi australia! haha. or whatever way it goes pun.

sesungguhnya allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita.

GOOD LUCK ALL SPM 2010 takers