Past,Present,Future

Something i wrote during FORM 2 :

I need 8A's to go to mrsm
I need Mrsm to get Best results
I need best results to go overseas

nmpk bertapa taaksubnya nak masuk sekolah asrama. HOW I SOO WANTED TO PINDAH FROM MELAWATI. HOW I SOO NAK OVERSEAS. Waktu form 2 ni tau. i guess its because all my life my cousins all had entered boarding schools and the all flew overseas to study there. sekejap je ayah would say ' nak pergi airport ni nak hntr kak/ abg whoever pergi whereever'. So to a 14 yearold kalau nak belajar overseas kena pergi boarding school sebab nak scholarship. And my grandparents aunts and uncles as well they are always 'nanti nak belajar kat mana? uk, us?' SO yeah the pengaruh sgt besar. MIND YOU: I have 30 cousins on my fathers side and mostly pun pergi boarding schools and belajar merata dunia.

Then dapat 8A's for PMR. that was the happiest momment because rase after this bolehlah pergi MRSM. mmg sgt manis. tapi it was sad 1st intake sbp x dapat i didn't care. then mrsm punya intake x jugak. sedih. AYAH did rayuan to pejabat putrajaya whereever for SBP. Kalau boleh i did not let him, because I so wanted MRSM. Yelah kalau dah dpt SBP say goodbye to MRSM. but then AYAH brought me to SBPi Gombak. wow nice. However i did paksa ayah to write surat rayuan MRSM. i dont know if he ever printed it though. then dpt sbp second intake. HAPPY AS EVER tapi it was far. I didn't care janji dapat pergi. but parents x bagi. they said tunggu, tunggu. THey brought me to the place nice jugak. But Gombak lagi best haha. This time memang down sangat. Memang marah la i got it mana ada chance nak dapat tempa lain dah. but MA kept on saying Sabar,sabar. So SABAR. then a SURAT CAME. it told me to daftar at my beloved school. Ha. Ambik kau.


soo yes peple reading this : LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS. because now i realised going to a school close to home banyak benefits, not just for you but parents as well, takkan nak suruh them travel 3 hours everymonth to visit you kan?

I tell you masuk SBPi Gombak also banyak benefit lain, it's the life that you wont find anywhere else. Truthla, actually if i stayed in Melawati maybe my fate would be the same, you know dapat straight A's but again its the things i got to do at gombak that maybe i would never had done at melawati. kokurikulum is a sure thing. here i learned how to debate, how to kawad, going camping. AND spiritual jugak i learned about myself, time management, and most importantly about ISLAM. yes, solat berjemaah hajat baca yassin puasa and all. It became satu budaya that i learned there because at home tak terjagalah sangat these stuffs. I dont think this applies for my school only but all boarding schools as well. SO yes takkan menyesal masuk asrama.

Then, before SPM a group of superseniors datang and gave us like a PRE-U talk. ONE of the benefits of boardingschools.heh. I came across Ib macam berminat sgt. SO yeah bercitacitalah nak Buat IB tu. Then i wrote another dream of mine:

I need straight A's.
To get a scholarship from mara/companies
To do the IB at a place like KMB
So I can go overseas no burdening my family
So i can get a good job and live well.

BUT then, tgktgk. Hmm Ib is hard so i forgot about it. during the MARA essay mmg i initially wrote nak pergi UK after doing Ib, but MA said dont letak Uk tukar letak AUSTRALIA it would be easy to go visit dan seterusnya. mmg sedih lagi, but using my experience tukarlah and wrote i wanted to go to ANU. with that i said byebye to IB and hi to AUSMAT. SO between the interview and a few days ago i thought intec and AUSMAT was my destination. i googled and mulalah ade smgt and all. i looked forward to AUSMAT, Ib macam dah forgetlah. Meanwhile i prayed and doa to get the MARA scholarship. I used my integomb knowledge haha...then as of 16/5/2011 I found this out:




SPEACHLESS, is it?no? but i was.
rasa macam nak laugh my head off

APA-APA PUN ALHAMDULLILAH

* i know its not clear, sbb saje MALAS.

meanwhile parents pun macam are not DOWN with this thing they want to try and get me ausmat because they want me to go to AUStralia. BUT what if I'm destend for UK?

And Ib mmglah can go to AUStralia but nanti paling cepat fly pun is in 2014, meanwhile if ausmat 2013 dah boleh fly. you see? The easiest, forget of this AND JUST GO TO UIA.

then again a week ago if you had ask me sanggup buat apeape untuk dpt scholar MARA i would have nooded. but now? hmmm. ALL i CAN do is LAUGH. maybe should have taken farmasi for JPA. but then again maybe x dapat. so yeee menyesal tidak bergunal gi. sekurang-kurangnya I have a chance.

HA.HA.HA.HA